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Just the Beginning

It’s funny how and where God speaks to you. Most recently God spoke to me in the ER in Downtown Grand Rapids.  It’s also funny how God uses pain in your life for His glory. While I was in the ER being treated for abdominal pain that had been progressively getting worse over a four month time period, I had one of those conversations with my Dad that would change the course of my life.

My story actually starts about 20 years ago in the summer of my eighth grade year.  I was a perfect angel up until then, for the most part living up to the standards and the expectations that had been placed on me.  Attending all of the functions, the activities and the services that were asked of me, I didn’t really put up much of a fight. Everything changed during that summer.

What is the role of a Pastors Daughter? Be a perfect little princess that is a beautiful reflection of the church her father is leading.  Well, I was done with that life. I snapped.  The bar was set too high, I kept missing it and then I quit trying.

I wanted to feel like a normal teenage girl.

No one understood what I was experiencing.

Please look at me like a typical teen, not someone with PK written across my forehead.

Who do I turn to to talk about all of this?

So what do you do when you feel left out of life? You do anything and everything to fit in! That’s what I did.

And that was only the beginning…Final BD Logo